Two Years Ago

I remember being scared. I remember thinking I made a mistake. Two Januarys ago, I turned down a job at an Equine Reproductive Center. They were willing to accept me just because I was willing to learn. I saw it as a great opportunity to get more into horses. To learn the veterinary care in equine breeding and be out on a ranch.

But, it was an hour away from home.

An hour drive on one of the most accident prone highways in the state, and in the middle of winter. They didn’t sugar coat the job. Ranch life is hard. You need the proper gear to withstand the frigid air. Yet, I tried to focus on the opportunity, and the pay was quite nice. Could this be the path meant for me in life? Go into equine. Be a vet tech ranch girl. Breed horses for people who have herds of their own?

I was excited about it on the hour drive home, but further contemplation brought turmoil all its own. Accept the job, training takes a whole year. Accept the job. Do I really want to be there? What is it I wanted out of this thing called life? I was miserable where I was at. Maybe this job is worth it’s strife?

I tried to envision life on the ranch. Hauling hay. Doing exams. Moving horses. Foals. Maybe having to stay the night if weather sucked or the job required it. If I had lived closer. It would’ve been more enticing, but my heart still dreamed of a chance in the spring.

I talked it over. Decided for myself. I didn’t want the job. I wanted to be somewhere else. So this great opportunity, I turned down flat. Hoping, I’d get what I could get back. It was relieving and terrifying, putting it all on faith. Yet, look what I’ve got now. I’ve got leopards, primates, and grace.

So, no matter where you are. Who knows what can happen in two years. Hold tight to your dreams. Don’t give in to fear. Be clear on what you want and hold that faith dear.