How much is too much? When it comes to effort? Is it when you’re exhausted at the end of the day? Find yourself on the floor with no will to move?
How much is too much? When you give and give. All the effort for scratches and bruises and cracks?
You do what you can. You do it at your best. Then, your time, your dreams are all used to rest.
You find yourself wondering when you’re put to the test. Will your effort hold out when conflict’s at it’s best?
Nerves get frayed. Exhaustion’s great trap. Hold to it too long and it causes you to snap.
How much is too much? Is it when you question everything? Wonder if you’re okay? Or if everything is slipping?
You hold onto hope. Tell yourself nothing’s wrong. You face the horizon. Say it’ll get better. It won’t be long.
You crack a joke so no one knows that you’re breaking. Say you’re waiting for rock bottom. That’s one thing you can believe in.
Down at rock bottom, there’s only one way to go. You try to hold out. It’s all that you know.
When the waters get darker and fear creeps in. You remind yourself to look up. Find the light again.
But how much is too much? When the pressure starts quaking? All effort gets spent. You’re always shaking.
At the end of it all, you can’t see the future. So you keep holding out, believing it’ll get better.
nikki diekemper 