Am I doomed to be forever silent?
Will my voice struggle to work
When my heart is heavy and hurt?
What binds my tongue?
I struggle to know
What causes timidness to grow?
Something feels wrong
I know it’s not right
Yet my lips are sealed like a vice
Why can’t I speak up?
What fear holds me back?
Am I doomed to always walk this track?
But how to find courage
In a space you can’t trust
How do you show you’re more than dust
When a moment occurs
You make a decision
And in the future it’s only regret that you’re given
You look back and wonder
Why you didn’t speak up?
Why didn’t you question the fear built up?
You try to lift your head
Say next time will be better
But you wonder if fear will keep you a debtor
Grit your teeth
Try to be stubborn
Don’t let the doubt come in
When the moment arises for you to make a choice
Lengthen the moment
Let your mind find it’s voice
nikki diekemper 